This has been written for almost a year now but I couldn’t bring myself to post it. I’m heartbroken and traumatized over Palestine, but if this review can make some people happy, it would have been worth it to write. Also I made a promise that I intend to keep one way or another to finish this series.
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Prologue
We get a replay of what happened the previous episode with Jota speeding up after concluding that Hana loves him, and him somehow managing to relay those thoughts to his younger brother in the instance it took to transfers the team’s sash. Jouta slows to a stop as Jouji takes off, his scream of disbelief trailing away. He glances behind him at his brother, and actually stumbles in his shock as he runs. Nico who was waiting to receive Jouta grabs him by the back of his shirt and calls him an idiot (speaking for all of us) as he pulls him off the track to the punchy track of “By the Jersey”
Act One
After the episode title we see Jouji running his section and learn from the news commentator that after Musa and Jouta’s sections the team climbed from last place all the way to tenth and may even be able to overtake Tokyo Sport University (Sakaki’s) who is now in 9th place.
-This is a fantastic start for a bunch of beginners.
As he runs Jouji is processing what his brother told him. And he’s not the only one. In a conference call Haiji discusses the matter with the rest of the team. First he asks “Did Hana herself say that she likes Jota?” He’s now in a car with Kakeru seated next to him. The latter is sweating as he watches Jouji run on the live feed through his phone.
– It’s an odd question given the circumstances and I can’t help but wonder if Haiji is asking it for Kakeru’s benefit. Not that this is news to Kakeru. Musa had already told KK he suspected Hana was crushing on a twin and Yuki expressed the same suspicion too. But there is also enough evidence to suggest Haiji was team Kakeru/Hana so his surprise here might have been genuine.
On the line, Musa admits that Hana never told him anything, he just came to the conlusion based on her demeanor.
Nico informs them that not only does Jouta suddenly assumes she likes him; he even shared that belief with his brother.
-The eldest team member’s exasperation shows his foresight that this might disrupt Jouji’s performance; he probably guessed both twins like her.
Yuki feels the same. He asks rhetorically “Why would that idiot agitate his brother like that.”
Only sick Shindo isn’t joining in the conversation. He seems to be asleep as he’s resting his head on his knees. Nico informs the team that Hana’s on her way to Odawara. Yuki wonders if she’s Godzilla.
-Hee. Also, nice to see Hana didn’t just single out Jouta to cheer for him, she’s been moving constantly.
Musa wonders if they should have the coach tell Jouji his brother’s just confused. We then hear the coach complain hilariously, “I’ve never heard of that kind of instruction being given before.”
Haiji makes the decision, “Not that I’m happy with it.”
-He does seem annoyed. As does Kakeru who’s eyes had been glued to his phone’s screen this whole time to watch Jouji. Frustrated, he bites out, “Run, you idiot!”
-In case we couldn’t tell, this would inform us that Jouji is not doing as well as he should be.
-It also tells us that however Kakeru might feel about this situation (if anything at all), his priority is the race. We’ve had a few blushes, but not much else to go on that he actually feels anything towards Hanako.
We find out later find out that the message the coach relays to Jouji, is from Kakeru, not, from Haiji. Which might explain why Haiji felt the need to clarify to the coach that the decision came from him.
We’ll discuss that later. First we see Jouji muse to himself as he runs that it doesn’t make sense for Hana to like his brother since the three of them were always together. He wonders what “like” his brother meant. If it’s just as a friend, then he likes Hana that way too. He reiterates this thought to himself as if trying to convince himself. He then recalls how he’d once asked Hana how she was able to tell him and his brother apart. She couldn’t explain it, but compares it to how all their roommates are able to do so as well. She adds from day one each brother was, in her eyes, unique. She continues “You’re brothers and best friends and always together, but what I like about each of you-” before she catches herself, blushes, and says “never mind”.
-Obviously at the time the oblivious Joji didn’t take her demeanor seriously, but he’s certainly thinking about it now.
-Unfortunate timing to say the least.
He’s brought out of his trance by the coach’s screaming out his name, “Joji! Are you listening! Answer me!”
Joji raises his hand. Noting the anger in his coach’s voice he wonders how much he missed.
Tanizaki then says this:
“I’m not sure what it means but you have a message from Kurahara. Just listen.”
He takes a breath before he says: “If you like her, run. That’s all.”
The driver of Tanizaki’s car gives him the side-eye. Embarrassed, Tanizaki defensively says, “It’s what I was told to say!”
-Hee. This is why he was so reluctant and why Haiji had to green light the message.
Kurahara’s directive irritates Jouji. “Who does he think he is?” But the message has the desired affect. With an inner battle cry he picks up his pace.
Next scene is at Odahara Relay station. Shindo and Yuki are waiting in an open tent. Shindo says: “He handed me the phone, it’s me.”
He’s speaking to Haiji who tells him that it sounds noisy where they are.
Shindo tells him, “We’re all anxious to start.”
Haiji’s voice is as mild as ever, with that same fond expression he has for all his children. But then his eyes narrow and he says Shindo’s name as if he’s about to say something important.
We see Shindo on the other side of the call put the phone down. Yuki eagerly asks him, “What’d he say?”
Shindo answers with a feverish smile, “That I’d better hydrate.”
-The word “zettai” is used here in Japanese which is usually used for emphasis. I would have translated it into, “must hydrate,” just to convey the urgency since, “I’d better” feels more like a suggestion rather than a direction.
-I was a bit surprised at Haiji’s advice. But it then occurred to me to be the most practical advice he could give. Sick people need lots of fluids and Shindo will be sweating a lot from both his fever and running.
-Also, Shindo is probably the hardest working member of the team. It’s not like he needed a “Do your best” from Haiji.
But the team captain doesn’t seem to be happy with his advice. He is morose as he puts down his phone. Kakeru tells him, “It’s the same for everyone. There’s nothing left to say.”
-It warms me to see Kakeru trying to comfort Haiji here. The role reversal occurred just in time.
The somber track underlines Haiji’s (and the viewers) trepidation as we’re shown Shindo’s hometown. His family has gathered to watch his participation. A banner hangs outside their home that says “Congratulations Takashi on Running in the Hakone Ekiden.” Inside, a large group of people has gathered to a celebratory feast of seafood and sushi. A banner with the characters of “Certain Victory” hangs in an indoor shrine (perhaps of a deceased relative?)
A girl that looks to be in her preteens calls out to everyone “They’re almost at section 5. He’s going to run soon!”
-In Japanese she calls Shindo “Oniichan” whi means older brother.
The screen focuses on her phone for a bit before we see the message exchange between her and Shindo as he reads them on his own phone screen:
Sister: First place brother!” To which he replies, “I’ll do my best.”
She then tells him that “Yu” is rooting from him and that their uncle from Tsuruooka has arrived.
-It’s not surprising that all Shindo’s family has gathered together to support him, being the lovable human being that he is. It would be all so very heartwarming if we didn’t know how sick he was. He has obviously kept this from his family or they’d be as worried the rest of his teammates. Their blissful ignorance is pitiable.
Shindo stares at his sister’s message in silence, like he’s using it to strengthen his resolve.
The runners from the other teams are arriving. An announcer tells us that Rikudo’s team is falling behind. They are now in second place and the third place runner is catching up as well. We see captain Fujioka staring intently at a television screen, taking in his star team’s underperformance.
In Kansei’s tent, Shindo stands up to get ready. He removes his scarf, coat, and face mask. Unlike the other Kansei members, he’s got a long sleaved inner under his racing uniform. He’s also wearing gloves to protect from the cold. He has not even started yet but he almost keels over in exhaustion. Yuki grabs his arm to keep him upright. He opens his mouth to say something but shuts it again, gritting his teeth.
As Kakeru pointed out, there’s nothing to say.
Meanwhile, members of the Hakone staff come up to call the fifth section runner of Saikyo Uni.
Shindo tells Yuki that he should go too.
Another staff member calls for Tokyo Sport Team’s runner.
It’s like a chilling countdown.
Yuki tells him worriedly, “But it’s section five.”
-Reminder, this section is an uphill climb; arguably one of the toughest sections of the race.
Yuki then adds, “Actually, no matter the section…”
-He doesn’t need to finish. Shindo’s is in no condition to run.
It is finally time. A staff member calls out for Kansei and Kikui University to get ready.
Shindo tells Yuki he’s fine. He gently pushes Yuki’s hand off his arm and promises he’ll make it to the finish line.
Yuki’s reaches out, but then clenches his fist in helplessness.
With a heavy tread, and a determined look on his face, Shindo thinks to himself, that he’ll make it “no matter what.”
Nira rolling around in the mid episode break gives us a sorely needed reprieve before the disaster that we know awaits us ;_;
Part Two
Jouji is on his knees in the Kansei tent. His sweat and tears drip on the floor as he pounds the ground in remorse and self-reproach.
His beloved Hana arrives to find him in this position, but even her voice doesn’t move him.
“What did I do? Why couldn’t I go faster?”
We are taken back in time to see why the normally cheerful younger twin is so upset.
When he arrived at his finish line, he handed the sash over with a smile on his face to Shindo, but it quickly turned into horror as, in that one second, he felt Shindo’s fever even through his gloves.
“He was hotter than me, and I’d just run section 4. I knew. I knew I had to get us as much time as possible. But I..”
-Well. Aside from Kakeru and Haiji we know that Musa and the twins are the fastest on the team so Joji’s disappointment in himself is understandable. Joji had to be as fast as possible to make up for any time they’ll probably lose. But Jouta’s just as much to blame, in my opinion. He really should have known better than to tell Jouji what was basically just an assumption on his part. Although, to be fair, he probably didn’t know how Joji felt about her either, considering Joji himself wasn’t sure.
Moving on.
-Yuki kindly but firmly tells Jouji to raise his head. “He’s already running.”
The track “Trouble” starts as the announcer from Car 3 says “Kansei’s Sugiyama’s pace is remaining constant.” As we see the aghast expressions on Shindo’s family’s faces as they see his swaying figure run on the television screen. The announcer continues that Kikui’s runner (who had started at the same time as Shindo) is already 500 meters ahead and that “Kansei’s hit the brakes.”
Shindo’s mother is covering her mouth in fear at seeing Shindo’s obviously ill face on the screen. His sister utters out in disbelief, “Brother?”
The announcer goes on to say that two teams are catching up from behind Shindo
-Remember when Haiji said that Shindo’s family would be so happy seeing him run “energetically” in Hakone? Yeah, so did I and that’s not what’s happening here. Not at all ;_;
-This was painful to watch, but you can’t move your eyes away from it.
A large screen has been set up broadcasting the race at what we later learn is section 5’s finish line. Haiji and Kakeru arrive just in time to hear a commenter say that it’s just a matter of time before the other runners catch up to Shindo. He points out that he seems to be having some kind of problem.
-The English word “trouble” is actually used. That’s putting it lightly. Shindo stumbles and sways as he runs. His heavy breathing can be heard over the exasperatingly apprehensive music. A member of Kansei’s short distance track team runs alongside him, and offers him water. He calls out to him but we can’t hear what he’s saying.
-This scene was very well done. We alternate between seeing Shindo himself and seeing the race from his eyes. The swaying road. The sound of his own breathing, gasping, trying to settle into a steady rhythm. He runs up Hakone and passes through a street with cheering crowds on both sides. They cheer for Kansei to go on, obviously moved by his efforts as the commentator says he wouldn’t be surprised if Shindo stopped at any time.
Tanizaki, following behind him in his vehicle takes up his mic and talks to Shindo about how Go is a challenging game.
-Go? Is that like Shogi?
Anyway, he goes on to say that the stronger a player is the more they value the way they lose, “How you recognize your loss and resign is key. No one blames the challenger for resigning or mocks him for running away. If anything they praise him for securing an escape route.
-Oi! Old man what are you doing here!
Shindo seems to be ignoring him as he continues running.
Tanizaki goes on to say “It’s because everyone knows that man was fighting to win until the very end.”
As he says this we see a montage of all the other players looking at their screens, their respective faces are marred with anxious expressions and beads of sweat as they watch their teammates desperate effort. Nico and Jouta are in a cab together. Musa and King are in what may be a hotel, based on the interior. Yuki, Jouji, and Hanako watch on Yuki’s phone. Prince is alone (probably in his hotel room since he finished his section first). The bath buddy is en route somewhere in his car but is listening to the race on a feed. Musa’s old boss, her husband, and Hanako’s father are huddled together watching the events on a phone screen. Back in Yamagata Shindo’s sister is cheering him, yelling at the tv screen while his crying mother rubs her hands together in a prayer. A man in glasses (presumably Shindo’s father) watches with concern.
In an electronics shop, a crowd of people have gathered in front of a bunch of television screens broadcasting the race, all of them watching Shindo.
-We get it. He looks so pitiful even strangers are worried. Please stop toying with our feelings already ;_;
Kakeru and Haiji are also watching on a large screen with equal stone-faced unblinking expressions.
-Tanizaki finally reaches the point he’s been trying to make: “Shindo. Raise your hand if you can’t continue. I’ll stop you immediately.”
– Half of me is very upset with Tanizaki here. Shindo is doing his best and he should cheer him on. The other half thinks he’s doing the right thing. But if Shindo’s still running then he probably can still go on, can’t he? I like seeing my kids do their best and push themselves as far and hard as they can go. It builds strength and character. But not if they were sick. Ugh, this is such a hard call to make and I think that was the point of this scene.
-I do find it interesting that Haiji didn’t relay a message here. I think he didn’t want to interfere, either to help or stop Shindo and just trusted him to make his decision based on his own condition.
A loud cheer reaches the area where Kakeru and Haiji are waiting. The commenter says that the lead runners are close to the finish line at lake Ashi. The first half victory went to Bose team, whose second year runner set a new record “A new God has ascended Hakone mountain.”
-Aha. So this is what Haiji meant when he asked if there would be a new mountain God this year. Apparenty it’s a title given to whoever breaks the 5th section record.
-The Japanese use the term God so very lightly that it almost means nothing. It’s one of the very few things I actually don’t like about the culture.
-The Bose runner is also wearing gloves and an inner shirt. I’m guessing Shindo’s section, being in the actual mountains is probably colder than the others.
Kakeru watches the first place winner crosse the finish line, but his attention snaps back to the television screen when he hears the announcer say in an urgent voice: “I’m here with Kansei. Kansei’s Coach Tazaki has gotten out of the car.”
We don’t see Haiji’s face, but unlike Kakeru who was distracted a bit by the arrival of the first half’s winner, he’s been facing the screen the entire time.
Tanizaki has indeed gone down and is jogging (if it can even be called that, the pace is depressingly slow) next to Shindo.
“Will he stop Sugiyama and forfeit the race?’” the announcer wonders.
-Remember when the team was at the summer camp? When Haiji was showing them a Hakone documentary where a coach’s words “saved” a forfeited runner as he escorted him off the tracks? Well I did right then and, well, shit. Was that supposed to be foreshadowing for this? Or to just increase viewers trepidation? Damn.
Again, we can only see the back of Haiji’s head as he watches Shindo on the gigantic screen. But when Shindo stops to rest we see Haiji’s eyes widen in fear.
-About Shindo, but also fearful that might forfeit the race.
Shindo’s legs quiver as he rests his hands on his knees and gasps for air.
“That’s enough. You did well.” The coach tells him as he reaches out his hand to him.
This happens in slow motion and I think the moment the coach touches him is when their team is considered forfeit. All the Kansei boys watch that hand reach out with bated breath. The emotional twins, and Shindo’s best friend Musa, watch with tear-filled faces, as the team leaders Haiji and Kakeru watch with tightly pressed lips. Shindo’s father, too watches with a closed mouth as his mother is hunched over sobbing. But his sister yells out what all of us are thinking to the sceen: “NO!”
As if Shindo hear her, he raises himself up before the coach touches him. He’s grabbing onto the Kansei sash. He tells the coach, “They’re all waiting for me.” As he continues running.
Watching him on the screen, with quivering lips, Kakeru goes into the following internal soliloquy;
“Why are we so desperate to keep running? Why can’t we stop doing something so painful and difficult? For our friends. For our goals. For ourselves. Stubbornness and pride. I don’t know. I doubt anyone knows. That’s why we can’t look away.”
It’s truly impossible to look away from Shindo’s pitiful but simultaneously utterly valiant figure teetering left and right in exhaustion, but steadfast in his desire to reach the end.
With tears in his eyes, Kakeru finishes his thoughts with this: “That’s why it sticks to our hearts.”
-Yes it does. Courage is very admirable.
-Is it me or is the first time that Kakeru cried? I need to go back and check but I really think it’s the first time. Heart.
Meanwhile, as per usual, the director keeps Haiji’s most vulnerable reactions private. We don’t see his face, but from the back of his head we can see his clenched jaw quiver, indeed his entire body seems to shake with emotion.
Running alone, Shindo seems to imagine himself in a snow storm. We hear the sound of the wind blowing loudly, almost harmonizing with the sound of his gasps and pants. Kakeru cries out in shock as Shindo finally falls face first into the road. He calls out his name and we are cruelly left in suspense to wonder if it was all for nothing.
Next scene depicts a red sky with the sun setting over what a super tells us is “Ashihara Inn”.
In the lobby, a television is broadcasting the race as the commenter on screen fills us in. He says “Kansei’s Sugiyama’s Takashi is experiencing difficulties in Section 5. While periodically stopping, he brushes off his coach’s attempts to stop him.”
We see Shindo on the screen finally make it across the finish line where he is instantly caught by Haiji as he collapses on the floor. Kakeru wraps him in a blanket an calls to him in a panic.
The announcer says that Shindo finally finished the 20.7 kilometers to the cheers of the of the audience “after demonstrating that he has the strongest will in the country.”
-Sniff. Yes he did.
-Kansei’s time on the screen: 5:42:59.They have placed 20th place in the first half ;_;
-Now I remember Kakeru saying that Musa can run 10 kilometers in about 29 minutes and that that’s on par with veteran runners. Meaning, an hour is approximately the norm. So, if each section in the race is about 20 kilometers (I think Musa’s the longest at about 23) and it takes about one hour to complete each section, then Kansei is about 40 minutes behind? Ouch.
Shindo is sleeping soundly in bed with a cold compress on his forehead. He’s still feverish but looks much better than he did when he was running.
Kakeru tells his sleeping figure: “We’ve already contacted your family. They said they’d come take care of you but we politely declined their offer.”
-I can see it. Of course his friends want to have that honor.
The coach, Jouji, Yuki, Kakeru, and Haiji are all gathered around Shindo’s futon, with Haiji, of course, sitting closest to his head.
The coach tells the others: “Shindo finished his section but tomorrow will be a difficult battle.”
-I don’t know why but I’m finding the coach increasingly annoying. I want to tell him, “No shit, Sherlock. At least they’re still in the battle, no thanks to you.”
Kakeru snaps in frustration, “It won’t be!”
The coach responds, “Because you’ll run? I’m glad you’re confident, but sometimes making it to the end isn’t good enough. Tomorrow, I won’t let you boys expose yourselves to the same kind of danger. We’ll be fully prepared for tomorrow.”
-Wait, did the coach even know Shindo was sick? If not, that could account for what he’s saying here. Or maybe he feels guilty for being out of the loop? Not knowing what’s going on?
-He still doesn’t know what’s going on. I doubt Haiji told him his knee hasn’t been well.
-What the hell does he mean by fully prepared? It’s not like anyone could have helped it that Shindo had gotten sick. Unless he means he won’t have anyone stay up drinking. In which case I wholeheartedly agree. Heck, Shindo getting drunk might have weakened his immune system and gotten him sick in the first place.
Moving along.
Coach continues, telling Kakeru, “switching our focus to that comes first.”
As in, to tomorrows race.
Yuki and Haiji watch Kakeru, when at his silence, Haiji answers for him, “yes.”
Here, Kakeru takes the hint and apologizes to the coach who then tells them to call the others after they prepare for tomorrows race. “You haven’t yet, right? They must be anxious.”
-Now that is actually a good idea.
Yuki sets it up by putting three phones on Shindo’s futon.
-Conference calls must not have been a thing at the time.
We see Musa and King on one screen, Nico and Jouta on another, and Prince along on the third. Yuki says, “Go ahead” when Shindo suddenly appears, leaning over the multiple screens to greet his friends.
Musa immediately comes close to the camera, his face almost hiding Kings as he cries out his best friend’s name. Jouta in his excitement does the same as he tells him nice work. King annoyed, tells Musa there’s no point to getting closer. Nico puts his face in front of Jouta’s to tell Shindo that as long as he’s not dead he’ll be fine. Prince is speaking but we can’t hear anything he says as his low voice cannot be heard over the others. Hee.
They go on for a bit before Haiji leans over to grab their attention. As soon as he says Guys, they all shut up. Musa wipes the tears from his eyes and they all wait for him to speak.
-Seeing Haiji’s natural authority here helped me understand my annoyance with the coach. It’s not like I hate Tanizaki. I just hate him acting like the leader when he never did so before.
Haiji tells them earnestly, “you worked hard today. We’ll have more chances tomorrow.”
Someone yells out from the screen, “Yeah!” Jouji wonders who it was. Nico says it was probably King who defensively asks what that’s supposed to mean.
Yuki tells them to shut up and be quiet.
Haiji says that whoeaver is running tomorrow should stay warm as they sleep and make sure they don’t overeat.
-That’s actually great advice. Staying warm ensures no one else comes down with a cold. And the best thing to do when you’re running. Based on my personal experience, running on an almost empty stomach is best. A superfood like dates (5-7 pieces) are more than enough to give you plenty of long-lasting energy.
When Haiji says “that’s all” everyone is shocked. King wonders if he doesn’t have any more helpful advice. Haiji says no with a sweet smile. He continues, “It’ll be over after tomorrow. All we can do is focus, so we can give everything we’ve got. The others all smile until Shindo asks to do Haiji’s Hakone cheer. Yuki chuckles and ironically tells him, “I’m sure yours will feel the most authentic.”
-So true.
Kakeru eagerly says, “Let’s do it.” Haiji is happy to oblige.
They all raise their arms within sight of their friends on the phone screens. Haiji starts,
“The mountains of Hakone…” as the others reply “are the steepest on the earth.
This all happens to the lovely tune of “The mountains of Hakone”. The lovely piano continues as we see the actual peak of Hakone before we switch over to the next scene where Haiji and Kakeru are riding a train, with Jouji napping in the seat next to Kakeru.
-No surprise considering he ran that day.
Kakeru and Haiji are looking out the window. Haiji seems to be lost in thought and/or emotionally drained. It might not be so obvious at first but when you compare it with Kakeru’s upright torso it’s very clear. Haiji’s shoulders are dropped. His head is resting on his right hand, while his elbow is being supported by the window frame.
-I love such details and what they tell us.
Kakeru comments that it might snow tomorrow. Haiji says his teammate’s name and asks, “Was that your parents’ idea?”
-As opposed to? Grandparents?
Kakeru clarifies that his father who ran track named him.
-This is interesting. Kakeru’s name literally means “to run.” I wonder if Haiji wishes he had a similar name, if he thinks it might have anything to do with Kakeru’s ability, as a sort of omen.
-In Islam, the prophet PBUH advises us to name our children carefully, that each child acquires a part of their name. I wonder if this idea is culturally universal. I know Japanese people put a lot of thought in their children’s names, from the sound, to the spelling, even to the characters used and the meanings they represent. One thing that greatly annoyed me is that I’ve only every seen Haiji’s name written in Katakana in the manga, meaning, just syllables of Hai and ji, no Chinese characters. And every time I look it up all I can find for the translation of them was “ash” and “two”, respectively which I found incredibly ominous, depressing and not at all fitting to his personality.
It’s perfectly normal and appropriate, but my personal head-cannon is this may be one of the reasons why Fujioka calls Haji by his kast name, Kiyose, which to me, is infinitely more apt.
Anyway. Haiji continues his query asking Kakeru if his father pushed him to run.
Kakeru starts to answer that they never really communitcated properly, before he stops and asks Haiji why he’s asking.
-I think, Kakeru caught on that Haiji didn’t mean to pry. That he just wanted to start a conversation. Our boy has started catching on quick.
-It’s true, because after a few seconds of quiet, Haiji starts talking.
“My father is a high school track coach. I was one of his runners.”
Kakeru listens intently as Haiji gets a glazed distant look in his eyes. His voice is as monotone as we’ve ever heard it. Not a hint of the lightheartd, sing song, quality we know and love.
As Haijj speaks, one of favorite tracks starts and we see a flashback of young Haiji.
“He’s not a bad person. He just loves track to a fault. I didn’t have time to think while under his total supervision, and I ran every day. Eventually, I broke.
-Here’s the thing, as Haiji is speaking we see his younger version stop running and double over in pain while clutching his knee. His father is standing behind him, watching him. As his coach, as his father, wouldn’t he have asked if he was okay? Or was he the type to leave it up to the players to inform him if they were in pain? He doesn’t seem like the tyrannical type of coach Kakeru had who didn’t care when the players got hurt, but maybe he just thought if it ever got really bad Haiji would tell him? I guess that’s what Haiji meant when he says “I didn’t have time to think.”
The next scene has Haiji sitting in the shade of some trees, away from the track watching as his teammates ran. His eyes looks dead inside.
-The runner in the lead is very tall and looks like it might have been Fujioka. I remember how Haiji once told Kakeru that Fujioka was a good runner and a good captain. At the time his tone had been extremely self-deprecating. I wonder if he had been Haiji’s team captain, or if he’d taken over Haiji’s captaincy after he’d gotten injured. This seems likely given how natural a leader Haiji is on his own team, and how Fujioka, several times in fact, stated, it’s his sort of team, as if he has experience in what type of team Haij leads.
My imagination might be going wild here but I promise I’m not pulling any of this out of thin air. The way these two behave around each other, the respect the have for each other not just as runners, but as respective leaders is what makes me draw this conclusion.
Back to the episode.
It is now sunset when we see Haiji throw his running shoes on the floor with an enraged cry. He stands gasping in anger before he falls to the ground, and puts his head on his knees. His feet are bare and we can see the skin on his soles and toes is bruised.
He stares at his beat up running shoes and just as his eyes start to pool, he raises his head to look at the sky.
-Again, all we see of a vulnerable Haiji is the back of his head. Seriously, how much does the director love/respect him that he refuses to show him crying?
Haiji goes on to say that, unable to run for the first time, he genuinely wanted to run.
We see him arrive at Aotake. Now we know that between his injury and arriving at Kansei university, he had physical therapy, but never regained his former speed, and didn’t accept the offer to go to Rikudo. —So I guess it would be safe to say he probably regretted his decision, because what we know is that, until Haiji formed it, Kansei never had a long distance running team. I’m guessing this is what he meant by “unable to run for the first time” since he presumably was always part of a major team.
At Aotake, he’s greeted by a younger Nira. He opens the door and tells himself, “This time, I’ll share a dream with teammates who earnestly want to run. whether they’re weak or amateurs as long as they’ve got talent and passion, I’m sure they can run.”
-By his fourth year, we know Haiji had gotten so desperate, he no longer cared about the “earnest” nor “talent” nor “passion” ^_^;
We see Haji meeting all the Aotake members in turn: Nico who we know was there before him, then Yuki, King, Shindo, Prince, Musa, the twins, then finally, Kakeru. This last, unlike the others, isn’t introduced at the Aotake, rather he shimmers as he runs through what seems like a galaxy.
Haiji ends his soliloquy by telling Kakeru, “For that, I bent everyone to my will.”
-;_; Haiji, please don’t. Not now. The way his voice wavers a bit, reflecting his frame of mind is heartbreaking.
He’s obviously feeling guilty for what happened to Shindo. That cheerful leader face he put on was an act and in the quiet of the subway (or train) his conscience caught up with him. I do wonder why he’s saying all this to Kakeru. Maybe because he knows Kakeru can understand the most, as a runner himself. Maybe he feels guilty for dragging Kakeru into all of this. But why now? Why when you’ve finally gotten everything you’ve ever wanted? You’re going to be running at Hakone tomorrow, son.
As the flashback finishes, we see Haiji slumped even lower in his chair, looking more dejected than we’ve ever seen him before. His eyebrows are drawn, his eyes are closed, blocking his view of Kakeru, as if he’s afraid to look at him.
Kakeru tells him, “We knew there was only ten of us…”
Here Haiji opens his eyes and lifts his head slightly.
Kakeru continues, “…but we’re more than ten.” Here, Haiji opens his eyes fully and looks at Kakeru.
The younger runner looks out the window, as if respectfully waiting for Haiji to pull himself together, as he continues, “The shopping center vendors, the university, and the people far away from us are all part of the team.”
-This goes back to the idea that Haiji posited to Kakeru way back in episode 4. You may be running alone but you are not alone. Kakeru hadn’t understood it at the time, but he sure does now. We’ve known this from when he talked to Musa, before Prince’s final shot at earning a record. But we’ve never seen him talk to Haiji about it until now. Now, he reminds Haiji of what he should already know. But he goes further than that. He says:
“No one thinks you forced them to do anything.”
Kakeru’s words breathe the life back into Haiji. He’s finally able to hold his head up without the help of his hand, which falls down to rest on the window sill.
Now that Haiji’s been revitalized, Kakeru can look straight at him and tells him squarely, “Even if you did, don’t forget that I’m grateful for that.”
Haiji is shocked; mouth is actually slightly open, but when Kakeru tells him, “Let’s run,” a look of relief and gratitude replaces it.
“We’re going to run the best we ever have.”
-I’ve said it before, if not here, then surely on twitter. Even parents need reassurance, and when it comes from our children, in the form of something we taught them, it’s the best earthly reward we can wish for. When you raise a child with love, care, and support, that child will, in turn, love, care and support you, and to me Kakeru’s speech here is the best example of that.
Back when Kakeru first came to Aotake, he could barely string a single sentence unless it was out of indignant anger. Looking at him now, all considerate, identifying the reason Haiji brought up a topic (he needed to talk) and being able to give him the assurance he needed, is so beautiful and satisfying.
I won’t do it here, but you can go back and compare this conversation to the first few heart to hearts Haiji had with Kakeru, and you’ll see what I mean ^_^. Kakeru seems to be a neurodivergent (takes one to know one) and as a parent, all I feel for him here is sheer and utter pride.
The scene switches to where Tanizaki and Yuki are sleeping together in Shindo’s room.
Yuki sits up and opens eyes full of determination.
It’s such a cool scene from an equally cool (and recently more tender) character.
But before we can get excited about it, the preview alerts us title of the next episode is “Goodbye, beautiful world.” And if that’s not a flag I don’t know what is.
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